A New Morning, Part 1...

8:00am

I woke up this morning, and my hand was numb. Kratos crawled to the head of the bed and made it a point to snuggle up to me. Of course, my hair has its own area code by sunrise, so I had to get it out of my face to see that the sun was creeping through the blinds - as if to tell me that it's going to be another beautiful day.

No nightmares. I can always be thankful for that. I went to bed... slept... woke up. That's the most I can ask.

I have a few things on my mind:

1. Eat!
2. Tasks to complete, i.e. shower, tattoo consultation, wash dishes, P90-X, etc...
3. Keep breathing.
4. That beautiful girl.

All I have to do is make it through the day and into tomorrow. Then I'll be that much stronger. I'll be that much wiser.

8:05am

I got to open up a new box of cereal today. 1 cup, measured to a "T". Milk shortly follows. Is this getting interesting yet? Let's sit down on facebook for a moment and see who wants to talk to me. Shit, I'm finished my cereal. I guess I'll wait another 2 hours before I eat.

*BLOOM* Oh! Someone IM'd me. Who is it?!

- not an actual conversation -

Lisa: good morning
Me: Good morning! How's your day?
Lisa: eh... work. it is what it is.
Me: Mmm hmm. What are you doing later?
Lisa: school then home. you?
Me: Nothing much. Working out, then nothing. Gotta go! Talk to you soon.
Lisa: bye!

I've gotten through half a Queensryche song on iTunes. Time to shutdown Windows. Let's get the boy ready for a walk and then get clean.

8:15am

The thought of love has flown in and out of my mind at least 100 times by now. I can't stop thinking about her. She haunts me. The word is no exaggeration : HAUNTS. I try to forget about her and move on with my day. Who is she?

I don't know.

She's there, but I can't find her. You, know? The one who's supposed to love me for me? The one who cares about me, no matter what? I don't know who she is, but she won't leave me alone. I can't say that I mind. The thought lightens my mood sometimes.

to be continued...