Tuesday, November 17, 2009

A New Morning, Part 1...


I woke up this morning, and my hand was numb. Kratos crawled to the head of the bed and made it a point to snuggle up to me. Of course, my hair has its own area code by sunrise, so I had to get it out of my face to see that the sun was creeping through the blinds - as if to tell me that it's going to be another beautiful day.

No nightmares. I can always be thankful for that. I went to bed... slept... woke up. That's the most I can ask.

I have a few things on my mind:
  1. Eat!
  2. Tasks to complete, i.e. shower, tattoo consultation, wash dishes, P90-X, etc...
  3. Keep breathing.
  4. That beautiful girl.
All I have to do is make it through the day and into tomorrow. Then I'll be that much stronger. I'll be that much wiser.


I got to open up a new box of cereal today. 1 cup, measured to a "T". Milk shortly follows. Is this getting interesting yet? Let's sit down on facebook for a moment and see who wants to talk to me. Shit, I'm finished my cereal. I guess I'll wait another 2 hours before I eat.

*BLOOM* Oh! Someone IM'd me. Who is it?!

- not an actual conversation -

Lisa: good morning
Me: Good morning! How's your day?
Lisa: eh... work. it is what it is.
Me: Mmm hmm. What are you doing later?
Lisa: school then home. you?
Me: Nothing much. Working out, then nothing. Gotta go! Talk to you soon.
Lisa: bye!

I've gotten through half a Queensryche song on iTunes. Time to shutdown Windows. Let's get the boy ready for a walk and then get clean.


The thought of love has flown in and out of my mind at least 100 times by now. I can't stop thinking about her. She haunts me. The word is no exaggeration : HAUNTS. I try to forget about her and move on with my day. Who is she?

I don't know.

She's there, but I can't find her. You, know? The one who's supposed to love me for me? The one who cares about me, no matter what? I don't know who she is, but she won't leave me alone. I can't say that I mind. The thought lightens my mood sometimes.

to be continued...


  1. you life is much more interesting than mine!

  2. I hope you're being sarcastic! By-the-way, It's gonna cost about $700 for the tattoo.

  3. im not being sarcastic! i feel like a boring old cat lady. haha

    whew! $700. who are you getting to do it?

  4. Jim over at Saints & Sinners. He seems to know his stuff. I have to do a bit of a redesign before I can get it done. One of the lines is too close together, plus I don't have the cash right now.

  5. yeah he knows his shit! well let me know when you might go for your first session. i wouldnt mind popping in.

  6. Thanks, Quill. I definitely will.

  7. You know that you will find her one day

  8. Steve... love you man.