Friday, November 27, 2009

New Things

Remember being a kid and making a hat out of paper? Or finally figuring out how to ride your bike without the training wheels? How cool did it feel the first time you used a Polaroid camera to take a picture? You point. You press that big plastic button - Out comes a photo that develops in front of your eyes! WHAT?! How did that happen?! Let's do it again.

All these things seem pretty fantastic when you're a child, don't they? What prevents us from keeping that spark? Why do we constantly search for newer, better things? When we're kids, we want the Huffy bike from Toys 'R' Us. We get that and find out our friends have the 21-speed. We're constantly trying to 1-up ourselves. Hello 16! Who wants a car? I do!

My first car was a Red 1998 Honda Civic EX... fully loaded of course. I was so excited when I drove it off the lot. I distinctly recall driving to the house, picking up my girlfriend, and driving around just to drive my own car. The feeling I felt while driving was the same feeling I got while riding that little Huffy bike in circles on my back porch. It was just being applied to something new. The car was more complicated... bigger... faster... "better."

YOU: What's the point?
ME: I'll tell you. A little over 2 years ago, I bought a bicycle.
YOU: Get on with it.
ME: Will you shut up for a second? I have a point. Trust me.

"HAHA. That was cute with the fake dialogue."

Anyway, I bought this bicycle so I could do something "new" with my girlfriend. I was getting bored with life. I would DRIVE to her house and we would sit and watch TV for hours. This was becoming increasingly annoying. I thought that if I bought a bicycle we could do something together that didn't involve sitting and gaining weight. Needless to say, it never happened. I put it away for over a year.

One day, I picked it up, inflated the tires, and hit the road. Can I tell you people that riding a bike isn't exactly as easy as "riding a bike." If you're out of shape and expect to get on a bike and ride 5 miles up and down hills, you've got another thing coming.

What have I become?! I used to hop on the bike, ride off for hours and return home to play catch with my brother. How come it was so difficult now? I'll tell you. All these bigger, better things I was looking for had taken the child out of me. I stopped seeing the beauty and simplicity in things like bikes or paper hats. Cell phones and surround sound... things of the digital era... all of this had taken me away from who I once was. I'm a child. This world is HUGE, and I'm just a little kid who wants to experience the simple things... fitness, puppies, love, kissing, having my own family.

Are we ever going to give in to our natural needs and let go of the stranglehold we put on ourselves to become this monster who has every product in the "Big Bad American Dream" catalog, or are we going to step back a moment and realize that we only need the little things?

I'm sure most of us have thought about this, especially in this time of "economic crisis." Has anybody heard about this? Yeah, apparently, we're in some sort of trouble. Anyway, my point is "Come back to basics, people!" What are we trying to prove with all these expensive toys we buy all the time?

That's all for tonight. I'm tired and ready to stop rambling. Love you all.

Have a good night,

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Just can't say it.

You do make me smile.
There's no doubt about it.
It's you. Nobody else.

It has been ages since I felt that way.
It's not because I'm lonely.
It's just you.

It's mostly when you smile at me.
No I'm lying. It's kinda when you poke at me.
No no... I don't know what it is. It's you.

I just can't stop thinking...
about your smile, your hair, your ev-er-y-thing.
I wish I could tell you.

You're so beautiful.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

A New Morning, Part 1...


I woke up this morning, and my hand was numb. Kratos crawled to the head of the bed and made it a point to snuggle up to me. Of course, my hair has its own area code by sunrise, so I had to get it out of my face to see that the sun was creeping through the blinds - as if to tell me that it's going to be another beautiful day.

No nightmares. I can always be thankful for that. I went to bed... slept... woke up. That's the most I can ask.

I have a few things on my mind:
  1. Eat!
  2. Tasks to complete, i.e. shower, tattoo consultation, wash dishes, P90-X, etc...
  3. Keep breathing.
  4. That beautiful girl.
All I have to do is make it through the day and into tomorrow. Then I'll be that much stronger. I'll be that much wiser.


I got to open up a new box of cereal today. 1 cup, measured to a "T". Milk shortly follows. Is this getting interesting yet? Let's sit down on facebook for a moment and see who wants to talk to me. Shit, I'm finished my cereal. I guess I'll wait another 2 hours before I eat.

*BLOOM* Oh! Someone IM'd me. Who is it?!

- not an actual conversation -

Lisa: good morning
Me: Good morning! How's your day?
Lisa: eh... work. it is what it is.
Me: Mmm hmm. What are you doing later?
Lisa: school then home. you?
Me: Nothing much. Working out, then nothing. Gotta go! Talk to you soon.
Lisa: bye!

I've gotten through half a Queensryche song on iTunes. Time to shutdown Windows. Let's get the boy ready for a walk and then get clean.


The thought of love has flown in and out of my mind at least 100 times by now. I can't stop thinking about her. She haunts me. The word is no exaggeration : HAUNTS. I try to forget about her and move on with my day. Who is she?

I don't know.

She's there, but I can't find her. You, know? The one who's supposed to love me for me? The one who cares about me, no matter what? I don't know who she is, but she won't leave me alone. I can't say that I mind. The thought lightens my mood sometimes.

to be continued...

Wednesday, November 11, 2009


Hush now, child.
Let not the loneliness
steal your innocence.

Bask, instead, in the the solitude
that binds you in tears...
in fear.

Find thyself.
Know you are worthy
of all you desire.

Become better.
Attain greatness.
Become you.

In darkness,
find the light which
you already possess.

Surrender to love,
and absolve all adverse
emotion from within.

Only then will you
let go of the past,
the past that haunts you, child.

You are a flower, still blooming.
Fight to open up to the world
and show your true beauty.

Become you.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

The Calm after the Storm

When I started working out, it was because of that feeling I got after I went up the stairs to head to bed. I would have to wait a few seconds for my heartbeat to slow down before I could get comfortable enough to sleep. I was only 30 pounds heavier, but it was difficult. To top it off, I was out of shape. About a month after I began working out, my brother told me about P90-X and I fell in love with it. It's changed my life physically/mentally/emotionally. I tell everyone I talk to about it, especially when they ask me about my arms/stomach. It's almost as if I'm trying to spread a religion. I believe in it so heavily that my day is surrounded by it.

"When can I fit time in today to do P-90X? Maybe I should do it before work today. I have a busy night."

It's almost unbelievable how much of a change I've seen all over. I hardly have any body/headaches anymore since I started. My energy is off the charts. I get to eat at least 7 times day and I'm not worried about gaining weight.

With all that being said... why wouldn't we want to share all of this with our friends, family and even complete strangers? This isn't a fad workout and diet plan. This is a life-altering workout regimen that not only boasts results... it delivers quickly! If you're ready to dedicate your life to health and well-being, drop your soda, take McDonald's off your maps and pick up some free-weights and a pull-up bar. You'll have a very hard time looking back at your old self without thinking, "why did I do that to myself?" and "never again."

Make the change people. Our children aren't going to take care of themselves, so we have to take responsibility into our own hands and become stronger. Not just for ourselves, but for our friends and family.

I hope I've made my point. I'll be back for more.

Love you guys,

P.S. Many apologies for the "myspace" photo. I didn't feel like getting out the studio lights and the Canon 40D for this one. Maybe next time. ;)

Wednesday, September 2, 2009


Alright internet friends. Who want to go out on a date? Apparently nobody! Now, I'm not complaining, but I find it pretty amusing the one girl on that had any interest in me described herself as "angry, boring and strange." Hmmm... Well, if we were to check out Manny's statistics over the last 3 years, that would accurately depict his choice in the opposite sex.

Needless to say, I steered clear of that one. I tried my hardest to contact girls that seemed to be normal and that lived within my 25-mile radius. None replied, so that leads me to believe that I'm a strange one or they just don't like guys under 5'10". Maybe I'll get some stilts and workout just my upper-body so they can't see the disproportion.

So if anybody has had luck on this or any other dating websites, please give me a tip or two. Thanks!


Thursday, August 27, 2009

Don't know why.

From the first moment,
I knew I loved everything you were:
The good, the bad, the lies.
It was illogical, but it just was.
Without understanding,
perhaps in your trance.

I said you'd break my heart.
Do you remember?

I didn't will it to happen,
but just as I knew I loved you,
I knew we were bound for heartache.
It still eats at my psyche.
Still awaiting a cure, the memories return...
in nightmares.

In dreams I embrace your presence.
Eventually coming to, I continue moving forward.

Tears no longer fall.
It's been years.
Numb to the effects,
I only focus on moving forward...
Looking for a love as moving,
as powerful as we had, then.

Do you remember?

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Oh, Yes Yes Yes Yes!

Man, I can't wait. I think that in terms of movies, I'm always on the lookout for a comedy featuring Brad Pitt. Now, I'm not positive that the upcoming Quentin Tarantino flick is a "comedy," but like I said, I can't wait! Since Snatch (Mickey O'Neil) and Fight Club (Tyler Durden), I've been a huge fan of the Bradster. It would be nice if people could get over his relationship with Angelina and his sharp looks to see that the guy has a pretty vibrant color palette, so-to-speak. Keep an eye out for Mike Myers in the trailer. He's there. Trust me:

"Inglourious Basterds" hits theaters on August 21st. If you're interested in going, let me know, and I will gladly accompany you to the nearest cinema. Have a good night, my friends.


Saturday, August 8, 2009

Ever wonder...

... what a dog would look like if it were upside-down? Well, you might get a good idea at Upside-Down Dogs. To the right, you'll see what kind of images might be found on this website. Give it a click to see it enlarged. Also, keep an eye out for Kratos. He'll soon be invading the site... on his back.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

... FUNNY story.

So a Michigan man chops up his wife up into lots of pieces, and is found in the friggin' woods where he is arrested and damn-near frozen. Now, people, I don't know about you but this is laugh-out-loud entertainment... Isn't it?

Well, this anchorwoman finds it unbelievably amusing. Maybe someone behind the camera was holding up a life-size poster of Jon Cryer nude. Or could it be, possibly, that Stephen Grant's mugshot fired off just the right amount of neurons in Ms. Haha's frontal lobe to make her giggle like a 6th-grade schoolgirl passing notes in class. Do you like me? Check "Yes" or "No." Anywho, have a look at this:


Wednesday, August 5, 2009

What ever happened to THIS guy?

Hello everyone!
If you're anything like me, you're not a huge fan of Six Flags America, but you LOVE the Asian guy on the old commercials. You know? This guy:

I don't know what it is about screaming Asian dudes with heavy accents that makes me break out in hysterics. Maybe it makes me think of MXC (Most Extreme Challenge). Needless to say, it never fails. But, my people, it seems as if they have replaced him lately with the creepy old dancing man from the even older commercials. Is anyone concerned about this? I am.


It's a Lifestyle

Hello internet humans,

So, back in January, I started a workout regimen that I was sure to give up on in a couple days. Most of us have stayed up late enough or woken up earlier than the ass-crack of dawn and seen the infomercial. It is made up of countless testimonials recorded on cheesy camcorders by every-day people in their average homes. What is it? I'll tell you in a second. These people claim to have changed their bodies from goo to muscle with little workout equipment, in a modest area of the house. No machines... no gym.

I had always wanted to try it, but didn't have the motivation, rather I didn't believe I had the strength/endurance to see results. But with the push of my brother Pete, I dropped my half-hour, all-in-one workout and began what we all know as P90-X!

I started at 179 pounds - not so hot for a guy who's 5'6". I finished high school at 145, so this was unacceptable in my eyes. I'm now at 155, and don't mind the 10-lb. difference from high school because of the muscle gain. Tony Horton (right), the brain behind P90-X, is a personal trainer with a sense of humor, which helps people like me get through the workout. I'm here to improve my body, but I need a little uplift from time-to-time. He's the one to give it.

Anyway, I'm writing for 3 reasons. I want to:
  1. spread the message to people who want to change their lives. I have, and I've never felt better (physically and mentally).
  2. thank Tony Horton for creating this simple, but physically demanding piece of work for everyone who wants to change.
  3. thank Pete for helping me change, and thank my best friend Steph for starting and constantly inspiring me.
Love you all,

The 2009 Harley Davidson Iron 883, Matte Black!

So I was out with the gang a few weeks ago for Chad's rockin' birthday extravaganza in Fell's Point, and outside Rodos Bar was parked the most beautiful stock bike I had ever seen. To the right, ladies and gents, is the Harley Davidson Iron 883. It looks sweet, ey? Well, the photo doesn't do it any justice. You have to see it up close to really soak in its excellence. Also, in my Facebook photo albums you'll find our beloved Holly modeling against the very same bike that made me fall in love with this model in the first place. On the Harley website these are supposedly only $7,899 MSRP. That was a surprise to me, as I thought they might break the $20K mark from looking at it up close. Anyway gang, just thought anybody who was an avid biker, or maybe just a fan, would get a kick out of this hot piece of American machinery. Stay safe!


Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Quiet Bob Thomas

For any of you lovelies who have seen MTV's "The State" and liked it, I feel like this clip will be a sexy little piece of candy for you all. I would embed it, but the damn code on Comedy Central gave me issues.


Muse is back, baby!

Here's a little slice of pie from Muse's upcoming album, "The Resistance." The song is titled, "Uprising," and it's already on the radio in the U.K. Thank goodness for the internet and Youtube. For all you dedicated fans, have a listen. The DJs stop talking at around 1:21 on the video.

- 08/06/2009 UPDATE -

The Youtube video has been taken offline. No surprise. The song is still cool. Search for it if you have a second.

Comcast Did WHAT?!

Alright folks! A couple months back, I came home to find Cartoon Network in snow. I didn't think much of it... until 2 days later when there was still no image. What the hell was going on? I need my Adult Swim people! I researched, Googled, and asked every human I knew if they had any clues. Nobody knew.

A couple weeks later, I heard it through the grapevine that Comcast removed Cartoon Network and a few other channels from its Baltimore County analog lineup. I was repulsed. Not having Cartoon Network ruined my evening routine, but the only way to get it was to upgrade to digital. I refused and sucked it up.

But today, a light shined down on me via United Stated Postal Mail. I received a letter from Comcast offering me 1 digital cable box (gets digital cable and On Demand, etc.) and 2 digital adapters (convert all channels to digital and bring back happiness). I read the disclaimers and all that jazz, and it seems that it is free. I went to and went through the motions. I got a printout and went to the customer service building in White Marsh to pick up 3 boxes. I got home, set them up, called to activate, and voila! Cartoon Network is here, baby!

So for all you Baltimore County residents without digital cable, check out the link above and see if you're eligible for this offer.


Monday, August 3, 2009

Silversun Pickups - Swoon (2009)

This is just a reminder to take a listen to the new "Silversun Pickups" album titled "Swoon." It's been around since April, but I just got wind of it within the last month. There are a lot of decent songs on this release. My 4 faves are:

Track 3 - Growing Old is Getting Old
Track 4 - It's Nice to Know You Work Alone
Track 5 - Panic Switch (On the Radio All the Time)
Track 6 - Draining

If you click on the above image, you'll be taken to an link where you can listen to snippets of all the tracks.


Starting Over

We all go through rough spots in life, i.e. loved ones passing away, losing jobs, break-ups. It seems that within the last year or 2, people around me, including myself, have been enduring a lot of pain and thus growing stronger because of it. Is it because we are growing older? Is it just because I'm starting to mature and notice other peoples' pain?

Of course, I won't disclose any names or information, so I'm going to use myself as an example. About 13 years ago, and what seems like just yesterday, my father passed away and life went on. I never stopped moving. This was just my way of dealing, I suppose. I didn't tell my friends right away. I don't really know why I went about it that way. Maybe I didn't want to be treated differently. Maybe I was just immature and didn't know what to say or how to say it. Also, there wasn't an open online community like there is today. We couldn't broadcast our thoughts so openly and across this vast network as easily as we can today.

Someone breaks up with us and seems to ruin our lives. What do we do today? We can post a blog... a long, angry, uncensored rant about how unfair life is. We can let the whole planet know how horrible this person that broke our heart is... how hard you worked and how much time/money you invested into the relationship while your other half took you for granted. If I could get paid to search the internet for break-up blogs, I think I'd quit my day job and start scouring. Hooray Google!

Long story short, I'm on here to let the world know that I'm here, and I'm strong. I haven't written anything online in a while, and now that I'm a little bit older, I plan to spit some worthwhile blog material starting now. I'm done with break-ups. I'll try to be positive and open-minded and leave behind the pain that I wrapped myself around a couple years back. I've been working extremely hard on myself mentally and physically over the past half year. P-90X has been a part of my workout routine and it's helped me lose almost 30 pounds. I never felt better, and I plan to continue on this way.

Love you guys,

Throw the Bomb!!!

Are you in need of some comic relief? Then, you might want to check out This is Photobomb.

For those of you who aren't familiar with photobombing, it is essentially jumping into a frame and ruining what could be a "Kodak Moment" for a group of unsuspecting bystanders. Here's an example:

My brother, Pete, maliciously photobombing our sister's happy-go-lucky graduation snapshot with the classic Marc Anthony "horse face bomb."

You'll find links to similar sites as well. Happy bombing!


- I Welcome Myself -

... and I welcome you lovely people of the interwebs to my new blog. I've had my own domain for 2 years now and haven't had any content to fill the space. Now I do, and it's exactly what you're looking for!

In all seriousness, I'll be posting my thoughts/rants/perversions using "Blogger" from now on. Updates should be expected monthly, or maybe even every couple weeks. Thanks everyone. I'll be blabbing later!